EATING

I haven't been posting because I haven't been eating. Lately, food is something I have to force down. I've lost a lot of weight. Everyone says I should try to eat more but I feel nauseous most of the time. It makes it hard to want to eat or drink anything. I'm not throwing up but I kneel in front of the toilet and gag a lot. What I do eat is very bland. I'm on a BRAT diet which stands for Bananas, Rice, Applesauce, Toast. I miss food. Food still smells good and looks good to me, but I can't eat it. When I do, I get severe cramps. I'm told over time that things will get better, but right now I'm frustrated because it's taking so long. I want a hamburger and macaroni salad from the grocery store.